AnnahSyu {♥}

Tuesday, August 25, 2009
12:27 AM

Mild pain

*Breath in and out *
Im sorry if any of my post hurt you . Well , this is the only place i can turn to .
For all the vague problems faced everyday . im sorry for that .
Yknow , ive never meant what ive said to you when i vent my anger .
I dont know wht else to say . I just hope you understand ..

Labels: yet its you i turn to

Sunday, August 23, 2009
9:12 PM

Breaking all of my defenses

Whats the prognosis will you be around?
Or am I just another victim of an assassin that broke my heart down .
I dont see how something good could come from loving you .
How can something so deadly feel so right?
Will it all come crashing down?
How many doses am I needing now?
Im going need to fight off the inevitable
And its a heart breaking situation , but I cant control

8:43 PM

#$%^&*^%$#

Is this what im looking for ? Is this what ive been searching for ? Is this what ive been waiting for ? Im very much contended with myself right now but i guess i shall discover things and explore . Sigh . Theres more to life rather than searching for soulmates . So yup . Im friggin bored right now . You guessed that right . Ive checked fb , tagged & fs. Im lazy to check my plurk . Theres nothing interesting to it .

I have list of goals for Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

Q'tam Quran by the end of the month ^^
Finish up my work asap

Find a new comfortable school

To change for the better . Insya allah

So thats it . Insya allah i can do it ! Haha .

Seems that my day is ruined .

Why are you doing this to me ? tell me . For god's sake i can take this no longer with the pain . Its unbeareble . It hurts so much )':
Just dont do this to me . Dont cheat my heart . Dont play with this heart .
I hate you i hate you i hate you for making me cry every now and then .
It hurts )';
Keem , help me . Pleaseee.

Labels: F to this hurtful feeling

3:50 AM

Now tell me whats wrong with blogger ?!
Shall change to Onsugar , its much better . doncha think ?

well this fingers are longing for long texts but no one to text . Haha .
But sometimes sunshines and friends plus him are there to text me . So i guess its ok la ?
Haha , yesterdaay was fun . Had dinner with sunshines over at my place .
Ive got pictures in my phone but its just that this laptop aint mine .
I shall wait till i get my fingers on my laptop at homee . wee~

Well , im definately proud of my FarmVille. Haha !
So nice , alot of trees . Peace to mother nature .
Blessings to them to and almighty <3

Time check its 6.53 pm . Lagi skejap nak buke !!
Haha , yey . Dad bought air katira and umi bought smth from the bakery shop.
And my tummy is definately waiting for th opening ceremony .
HAHA ! till here . chalo lovebugs .

Friday, August 21, 2009
2:23 AM

Wednesday, August 19, 2009
7:17 PM

Pinky Room -,-

As pridicted yesterday was kinda moody with the help of uninvited fights . Sigh . When will this end eh . Well , despite the misunderstandings, went out for abit to chill this mind and bought home Mash potato ; Ummi's fav & Cheese Fries for myself of course ^^.
Im willing to forget everything that happened cause i know theres always a reason to it . Bravo ! -,-
Keem broke up with his lady yesterday night . Settling things down and ive tried calling him but cant get through . And im sure he's trying to settle things . Aww , dont cry you bawang . Or else i pinch your friggin nose : P

Had a night study session with dearly sister . Recap on Tangent and Pythagoras Theorem and next will be Circles 0.0 . Wonderful ! -,-
Sis promised me to have our study session later at night but i dont think its going to happen cause ill be home at wee hours . Approximately 1 - 3 in the morning ? Will be over with Sunshines at Sembawang .

Love , all the best for your papers ! <3

Labels: Sunshines

1:10 AM

Oh bummer , its sad to say that my life is officially f*ked up !

12:44 AM

I stand alone with my two feet .

Do i have to take all of it , swallowing the bitter taste and just close one eye . Disapprove , its just that i feel very unwilling thou im against all odds . But it seems like . . . Its so hard to explain things . Why am i not opening up ? Im numb to fights which is rather irony . But wait , is it th cause of my actions ? Agony . Despite showering love , i just dont understand why people dont seem to appreciate whats given . Is it so hard ? Displeased within the boundaries given . But please , i have a heart and im sure you too right ? So , questions and answers were given didnt thought that you could answer it that way . But nevermind , i asked for it didnt i ? Yea , i did . So i have to endure endure and endure . Whats more ? Enduring only . So , heres the clinche . I feel unloved . Get that ? Period.

So Ramadhan is around th corner . Im totally looking forward to it

with the preparations at the eleventh hour . Get wht i mean ?

Is so going to be fun . Switching venue every Fri And Sat .

Yey ! Till th upcoming event .

"Lai la tul qodar yang mulia , hanya di bulan puasa .

Turun al-quran padanya , buat pedoman manusia ."

Im hungry now . very very hungry . Love wants to be me food but i think i shall not waste his money . Looking forward on th 10th sept love . I think . Oh so mundane .

Ramblings of my oh so sweet and bitter moments in life .

Labels: With no obligations ; im not standing strong

Friday, August 14, 2009
2:09 AM

Needs to be alone .

I just loathe the feelings that i have with me now . I feel so inscure . Love doesnt know about it .
Lets put it this way , im rather emotional today . Maybe i know why . But i shouldnt take it to the heart but , it seems like i cant stand this kind of treatment given . Action speaks louder than word and im sure you understand how i feel . Embrace life while you still can . You dont mean what you said . I seriously feel akward and in all sorts of mess . Its just unfair . See what i mean ? So i shall bottled my emotions all into one . To see if you really really mean what youve said .

Just dont make me hate you & dont make me leave . Im just trapped in a lifeless full of sorrow .
Dear almighty . Help me from above . Give me strength to endure .

Make me sad ? Yea sure . But not always . my heart just cant take . Ahh , stupid me & i dont wish to be disturbed . Im on hiatus . Take care all .

Labels: I know i shouldnt have

Tuesday, August 11, 2009
9:46 AM

Magic to life

Tell me what more could i ask for if i have everything in hand . Its destiny .
Sugar Rush , th most outsanding emotions . Ahh , its love . It heals the pain , causes the pain nonetheless the cure to loneliness . The antiseptics to the sickness that is bewildered . Joyful . At the same time the most peskiest living thing that leads to upteen fights which is irony . And i guess , it bonds ones much more closer when it occurs . I feel so superficial , not reluctant at all . The great scenery to a wonderful desired heart . Much thought could appear upon having havock fights . But itll numb the heart somehow to forgive and forget and to love more . The only thing that will make changes , be it good or bad . It does wonders . Ohh , yes it does . The most enthu , dope yet cranky episode in life . Not turning a new leaf . Just hoping it wont fall apart . The emotion shall be bottled to see if its really worth it , to restrain the heart aches that wont heal in just a bit . To be continued . . .

8:46 AM

I just dont get it . Whats wrong with people these days telling lies and being such a hypocrite . Its like a major thing to me . Wake up laa please .

Thursday, August 6, 2009
10:59 AM

Yawwwn , streeech !
Follow me on plurk :D

Sunday, August 2, 2009
8:49 PM

Boys are forever jerks . ^^

I have a sudden urge to blog about something , thou i no longer have anything to do with him .

I got the chance to know your boyfriend at the camp, he was the one who came up to me and started the conversation. I didnt bother much about him at first but he was being helpful and i thought that was really thoughtful. We were quite close during the campfire and yeah, i did asked around to know if he was attached, someone told me he was and when i mention jannah, he replied " how did you know my sister's name? " i thought that was quite pathetic. So i remain mum, i knew it he was attached afterall so i didnt go anything beyond of not respecting you. He texted me a few days after camp and ask for my email add. When i ask him to add me in friendster, he say he got it deleted already. So i was friendster hopping when i came across khai's profile. I thought that was quite a jerk. I mean if he didnt have anything to hide, what's the point of saying that he's acct has been deleted? He call me up several times a few days back. When i mention you, he say things like he didnt bother about you in school and blah blah. When i asked what happened? He ask me to ask you instead. I don't know what is your boyfriend up to but yeah, when i tell you this, i hope i wont be involved between you two. I guess khai do still have the hearts for you afterall. :D So jannah, if you ever need anything to clarify, do not hesitate to msg me cause its not a bother at all. Take care dear.

Such a clear cut . I remember ignoring him few days or weeks after . And cryy too . Sucha a cry baby . Cant seem to remember . He knew about it , soon after he text me call me . And i ignore . I kept a few distance from him . Its like as if were strangers . And he talked things out and he said it was a joke. I didnt want things to get worse so i gave it and case close . Lol . I did tell you he called right in the morning around 10+ . I text him , to ask if hes done with his work . He reply " tengah lepak lah "
Cant remember wht time and he said hes going to sleep . I replied smthng about him busy working and battery always low . So he said all the smoochy smocchy things and i replied smtng really short till he say " Kay la , i tak nak text you lagi " Waaah piang , mcm nak bunuh die je . Wtv then he started calling me few days back i ignored and i decided to answer todays call and he didnt have the cheeck to applogize . Jerks .

Labels: so tell me ; am i suppose to love drasticly

7:25 PM

Peak to dawn .

Its been long since ive update my blog , well nothing special happened . Im still stuck with the irritant constant cough and flu . Its getting out of hand . Umi say theres no need to consult doctor , cause its just cough and flu .

Things end , and we're friends . Well , thats a good start isnt it ? I just hate myself . I Want hugs , not thugs . Take care my dear dear friend .

He called " u marah eh" i kept silent throughout and i hung up . My heart cant seem to take it and yea , you guessed it right . I cried . Ahh whatever .

Well , thought of changing to onsugar.com . Pending . See you readers around.

status : hiatus
not available .

Labels: Specialist of heart breaking scenario