AnnahSui

Mild pain

2009-08-25T00:27:00.000-07:00

*Breath in and out *
Im sorry if any of my post hurt you . Well , this is the only place i can turn to .
For all the vague problems faced everyday . im sorry for that .
Yknow , ive never meant what ive said to you when i vent my anger .
I dont know wht else to say . I just hope you understand ..

Breaking all of my defenses

2009-08-23T21:12:00.000-07:00

Whats the prognosis will you be around?
Or am I just another victim of an assassin that broke my heart down .
I dont see how something good could come from loving you .
How can something so deadly feel so right?
Will it all come crashing down?
How many doses am I needing now?
Im going need to fight off the inevitable
And its a heart breaking situation , but I cant control

#$%^&*^%$#

2009-08-23T20:43:00.000-07:00

Is this what im looking for ? Is this what ive been searching for ? Is this what ive been waiting for ? Im very much contended with myself right now but i guess i shall discover things and explore . Sigh . Theres more to life rather than searching for soulmates . So yup . Im friggin bored right now . You guessed that right . Ive checked fb , tagged & fs. Im lazy to check my plurk . Theres nothing interesting to it .

I have list of goals for Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

Q'tam Quran by the end of the month ^^
Finish up my work asap

Find a new comfortable school

To change for the better . Insya allah

So thats it . Insya allah i can do it ! Haha .

Seems that my day is ruined .

Why are you doing this to me ? tell me . For god's sake i can take this no longer with the pain . Its unbeareble . It hurts so much )':
Just dont do this to me . Dont cheat my heart . Dont play with this heart .
I hate you i hate you i hate you for making me cry every now and then .
It hurts )';
Keem , help me . Pleaseee.

2009-08-23T03:50:00.000-07:00

Now tell me whats wrong with blogger ?!
Shall change to Onsugar , its much better . doncha think ?

well this fingers are longing for long texts but no one to text . Haha .
But sometimes sunshines and friends plus him are there to text me . So i guess its ok la ?
Haha , yesterdaay was fun . Had dinner with sunshines over at my place .
Ive got pictures in my phone but its just that this laptop aint mine .
I shall wait till i get my fingers on my laptop at homee . wee~

Well , im definately proud of my FarmVille. Haha !
So nice , alot of trees . Peace to mother nature .
Blessings to them to and almighty <3

Time check its 6.53 pm . Lagi skejap nak buke !!
Haha , yey . Dad bought air katira and umi bought smth from the bakery shop.
And my tummy is definately waiting for th opening ceremony .
HAHA ! till here . chalo lovebugs .

2009-08-21T02:23:00.000-07:00

Pinky Room -,-

2009-08-19T19:17:00.000-07:00

As pridicted yesterday was kinda moody with the help of uninvited fights . Sigh . When will this end eh . Well , despite the misunderstandings, went out for abit to chill this mind and bought home Mash potato ; Ummi's fav & Cheese Fries for myself of course ^^.
Im willing to forget everything that happened cause i know theres always a reason to it . Bravo ! -,-
Keem broke up with his lady yesterday night . Settling things down and ive tried calling him but cant get through . And im sure he's trying to settle things . Aww , dont cry you bawang . Or else i pinch your friggin nose : P

Had a night study session with dearly sister . Recap on Tangent and Pythagoras Theorem and next will be Circles 0.0 . Wonderful ! -,-
Sis promised me to have our study session later at night but i dont think its going to happen cause ill be home at wee hours . Approximately 1 - 3 in the morning ? Will be over with Sunshines at Sembawang .

Love , all the best for your papers ! <3

2009-08-19T01:10:00.000-07:00

Oh bummer , its sad to say that my life is officially f*ked up !

I stand alone with my two feet .

2009-08-19T00:44:00.000-07:00

Do i have to take all of it , swallowing the bitter taste and just close one eye . Disapprove , its just that i feel very unwilling thou im against all odds . But it seems like . . . Its so hard to explain things . Why am i not opening up ? Im numb to fights which is rather irony . But wait , is it th cause of my actions ? Agony . Despite showering love , i just dont understand why people dont seem to appreciate whats given . Is it so hard ? Displeased within the boundaries given . But please , i have a heart and im sure you too right ? So , questions and answers were given didnt thought that you could answer it that way . But nevermind , i asked for it didnt i ? Yea , i did . So i have to endure endure and endure . Whats more ? Enduring only . So , heres the clinche . I feel unloved . Get that ? Period.

So Ramadhan is around th corner . Im totally looking forward to it

with the preparations at the eleventh hour . Get wht i mean ?

Is so going to be fun . Switching venue every Fri And Sat .

Yey ! Till th upcoming event .

"Lai la tul qodar yang mulia , hanya di bulan puasa .

Turun al-quran padanya , buat pedoman manusia ."

Im hungry now . very very hungry . Love wants to be me food but i think i shall not waste his money . Looking forward on th 10th sept love . I think . Oh so mundane .

Ramblings of my oh so sweet and bitter moments in life .

Needs to be alone .

2009-08-14T02:09:00.000-07:00

I just loathe the feelings that i have with me now . I feel so inscure . Love doesnt know about it .
Lets put it this way , im rather emotional today . Maybe i know why . But i shouldnt take it to the heart but , it seems like i cant stand this kind of treatment given . Action speaks louder than word and im sure you understand how i feel . Embrace life while you still can . You dont mean what you said . I seriously feel akward and in all sorts of mess . Its just unfair . See what i mean ? So i shall bottled my emotions all into one . To see if you really really mean what youve said .

Just dont make me hate you & dont make me leave . Im just trapped in a lifeless full of sorrow .
Dear almighty . Help me from above . Give me strength to endure .

Make me sad ? Yea sure . But not always . my heart just cant take . Ahh , stupid me & i dont wish to be disturbed . Im on hiatus . Take care all .

Magic to life

2009-08-11T09:46:00.000-07:00

Tell me what more could i ask for if i have everything in hand . Its destiny .
Sugar Rush , th most outsanding emotions . Ahh , its love . It heals the pain , causes the pain nonetheless the cure to loneliness . The antiseptics to the sickness that is bewildered . Joyful . At the same time the most peskiest living thing that leads to upteen fights which is irony . And i guess , it bonds ones much more closer when it occurs . I feel so superficial , not reluctant at all . The great scenery to a wonderful desired heart . Much thought could appear upon having havock fights . But itll numb the heart somehow to forgive and forget and to love more . The only thing that will make changes , be it good or bad . It does wonders . Ohh , yes it does . The most enthu , dope yet cranky episode in life . Not turning a new leaf . Just hoping it wont fall apart . The emotion shall be bottled to see if its really worth it , to restrain the heart aches that wont heal in just a bit . To be continued . . .

2009-08-11T08:46:00.000-07:00

I just dont get it . Whats wrong with people these days telling lies and being such a hypocrite . Its like a major thing to me . Wake up laa please .

2009-08-06T10:59:00.000-07:00

Yawwwn , streeech !
Follow me on plurk :D

Boys are forever jerks . ^^

2009-08-02T20:49:00.000-07:00

I have a sudden urge to blog about something , thou i no longer have anything to do with him .

I got the chance to know your boyfriend at the camp, he was the one who came up to me and started the conversation. I didnt bother much about him at first but he was being helpful and i thought that was really thoughtful. We were quite close during the campfire and yeah, i did asked around to know if he was attached, someone told me he was and when i mention jannah, he replied " how did you know my sister's name? " i thought that was quite pathetic. So i remain mum, i knew it he was attached afterall so i didnt go anything beyond of not respecting you. He texted me a few days after camp and ask for my email add. When i ask him to add me in friendster, he say he got it deleted already. So i was friendster hopping when i came across khai's profile. I thought that was quite a jerk. I mean if he didnt have anything to hide, what's the point of saying that he's acct has been deleted? He call me up several times a few days back. When i mention you, he say things like he didnt bother about you in school and blah blah. When i asked what happened? He ask me to ask you instead. I don't know what is your boyfriend up to but yeah, when i tell you this, i hope i wont be involved between you two. I guess khai do still have the hearts for you afterall. :D So jannah, if you ever need anything to clarify, do not hesitate to msg me cause its not a bother at all. Take care dear.

Such a clear cut . I remember ignoring him few days or weeks after . And cryy too . Sucha a cry baby . Cant seem to remember . He knew about it , soon after he text me call me . And i ignore . I kept a few distance from him . Its like as if were strangers . And he talked things out and he said it was a joke. I didnt want things to get worse so i gave it and case close . Lol . I did tell you he called right in the morning around 10+ . I text him , to ask if hes done with his work . He reply " tengah lepak lah "
Cant remember wht time and he said hes going to sleep . I replied smthng about him busy working and battery always low . So he said all the smoochy smocchy things and i replied smtng really short till he say " Kay la , i tak nak text you lagi " Waaah piang , mcm nak bunuh die je . Wtv then he started calling me few days back i ignored and i decided to answer todays call and he didnt have the cheeck to applogize . Jerks .

Peak to dawn .

2009-08-02T19:25:00.000-07:00

Its been long since ive update my blog , well nothing special happened . Im still stuck with the irritant constant cough and flu . Its getting out of hand . Umi say theres no need to consult doctor , cause its just cough and flu .

Things end , and we're friends . Well , thats a good start isnt it ? I just hate myself . I Want hugs , not thugs . Take care my dear dear friend .

He called " u marah eh" i kept silent throughout and i hung up . My heart cant seem to take it and yea , you guessed it right . I cried . Ahh whatever .

Well , thought of changing to onsugar.com . Pending . See you readers around.

status : hiatus
not available .

Sunshines , thats all i need

2009-07-30T10:18:00.000-07:00

Im worsen things out to make things end , sorry wont heal .
I jst hate this super pesky part which i have to balance all by myself with only
one feet on the ground . If it ends with no goodbyes , i dont mind cause i know i deserve it .
For everything that ive did , i would like to appologies to you . Take care . And rest assured , i wont have anything to do with yu no more . Im sorry . I dont know whats got into me . I hope youll move on . Theres tons of fishes in the sea . All you need to do is to fish em . With good qualities of rod , youll get the one you desire . Ive never existed neither happily ever after .
Ive utterly tried to get things right but in the end ive tripped and you caught me . But not this time . I want to be free . From everything . Im sorry .

Much Love ,
Annah .

2009-07-30T10:02:00.001-07:00

Whats the point of falling in love ? - None .
Tsssk ! I need to wake up early in the morning to accompany AP to polyclinic .
shall sleep now , toodless .

2009-07-27T22:18:00.000-07:00

Dont walk behind me , i may not lead .
Dont walk infront of me , i may not follow .
All i need is for you to walk beside me and be my friend
cause im going through a hopless life full of drama .

So earlier on ex bf texted me about his whereabouts and what was i up to and blablabla .
He was busy with work and didnt disturbed him any further .
Work Work Work Work . Tssk .
Busy Busy Busy Busy . Tssk .

2009-07-27T22:04:00.000-07:00

I shall do a proper update , Had family reunion on Sunday over at dad's side . Went to Jb .
Pictures are over at facebook . I think sis should upload it by now . Well , im not active in neither social networks be it facebook , tagged , friendster and msn . Currently im stuck with fever and flu . So , i can see myself quarantined for a week ? Hah ! Well , looking forward for tha upcoming national day . Will not be in Singapore . Will be cracking jokes and happiness with sunshines. And afta so much of headcounts and booking tickets , thanks to Ibu Su :D
All of them will be going . Yey ! When im free , ill upload all the outings . Yes all . Alot of pictures in my picasa folder yknoww . Itll take a lifetime . Cheyh , no laa :P

Ive yet to complete the work given but still unwell . Well , received 5o bucks from Pamancik . Thankaaayou! I still have to print the notes and return em' .

Yes , yes im still single . Not looking for one . So yup .
So typically , i should be . Single and not avail eh ?
Hahaha , kaay till here . Chalo lovebugss <3

Not Active Anymore

2009-07-27T18:33:00.000-07:00

Ive typed alot of things but it dissapeared . And now im pretty lazy to update .
Till tha next updates .

2009-07-23T01:55:00.000-07:00

Back for more updates ~ Haha !
Alot of things happened ya'll can know by my previous dirty blog .
Well , theres so much to update on but so little time . Ill come back another time
for more updates . Perhaps. Haha ! Stay tunee <3

2009-07-15T22:04:00.000-07:00

Im ultimate terrified upon hearing from Hamna about education . Im not sure if i can cope . But rest assured im pulling my socks . Its the call for me . My emergency call . Its now or never . My brain is a wreck . Im not sure if i can do this . My lungs are tied . No air to breathe . Im super scared ! Ahhhhh ! Next year will be the , Jannah The Pimple Face . Well , thats not important but whats important is how well im going to do next year . Im scaaareed ):
And im taking a step forward , skipping my N levels . Haiyaaa . I need a tutor , pronto !
As for next year , no more bubbly Jannah . Im going to persevere hard . I want to achieve my goals with god's help . Insya allah . Amin ~

2009-07-14T02:31:00.000-07:00

Reluctant enough to see whats there to give in even if its the most tiniest thing . Enough said , just leave me alone for the time being . Theres no need for explanation . I hope you understand .

Urgh , im drown in tears . Eventhough this is just the clinche in life , it hurts so bad .
Ive been moody at times . Is it the cause of my period ? Its weeks to come . So ,
if thats not the cause , then what is it ? Its bothering me . Every story line have its ,
reason of why this or that happens , but i cant seem to find mine . Hoping and praying for the best . Though , this year have been the greatest year for me , i dont want anything to spoil
it . Good things come once . Im much pre - occupied with this thoughts that i cant seem to elaborate much on . Its nerve wrecking . To add on to the misery which is really not captivating , dad is not buying me my fish and chip meal . Im super angry .

See , I can get super angry just over a stupid meal that ive been wanting for weeks or perhaps months but no one is doing anything about it . And dad said that he'll buy the fish and ask wak to cook . Urgh !

This is so not me , getting fired up about the littleless things . And it is super crucial for me to talk to other as i might spout nothing but the angry side of mine . This sound so stupidddd !

It's all in god's hand . I redho if anything happens . Alhamdulillah <3

Fall Again

2009-07-13T09:47:00.000-07:00

Ive tried hard not to fall or stumble . But it seems rather hectic with the surroundings .
Sorry for the changes ive made , Its for the best perhaps . It feels like i have no more
hope in my life . Id rather give up but i chose to fulfill this live to complete my parent's wish .
Ive got no other options . Regardless of how many times ive tried standing strong with my pillar of strenght around me , its just super ironic that it doesnt make any difference .
Its my call , i chose to go through it alone . I need no help plus neither the pityness . Even if i were obligated enough , seriously it doesnt make any difference . Cause you know . Its life .
I just feel like running away , but to think of it , what about how people feels .
I dont want to be selfish . Its super sophisticated . All i can do is to endure every bitter moments .

♥ , im sorry but i need some time on my own . Hope you'll understand . Take care .

Act Like Nothing At All

2009-07-13T00:20:00.001-07:00

Its just unfair . Philosophy of life that leads to severe heart ache and drowsiness .

I just hope and pray for the best in life . Insyaallah <3